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The past five months for myself have been not quite what I would have predicted when I graduated from college in May. I never would have expected the unexpected nor would I have ever imagined I would be where I am right now. Roads diverge apart, converge with new ones, and sometimes simply cross with others briefly in this life of complexities that we live in.
The beginning of adulthood is also a challenging endeavor. In society today we are pampered up to and through high school all the way to college and beyond. College teaches you partial freedom in that you are living on your own with your own responsibilities, but you are still tucked safely under the wings of your parents if things get too tough. And post-college it is difficult to leave that sanctuary. When do you take the first big step in the direction of your own choosing? It is a question I often ponder but am not nearly ready to answer. I do not know what to expect or to do next as I have already established a good foundation of a college degree and stable job. I am also steadily approaching my one year goal of paying off my college debt (or at least the part that is in my name; my parents also share a fair amount). What goals in life do I want?
Stability and happiness. Those are good goals, right?
But sometimes those goals are challenged by difficulties. And September was quite a difficult month for me. And it felt like it was never ending (wake me up when September ends). I will not say much here other than Rebekah and I went our separate ways and the rest is water under the bridge. I hope she finds what she is looking for.
Despite going through life’s difficulties, I know that giving up on life is never the answer. Everything happens for some reason or other. I will continue onward and learn from it, hence my mantra “We learn from our past in order to be better prepared for our future.” Throwing it all away is a waste when it can be resolved through time and understanding. There is so much to learn about life, so many questions to ask and even more answers yet to be discovered.
The spontaneity of life is also amazing. Through it I have met Shannon and we both cannot describe exactly how we have become “stuck” together. I have known about Shannon for quite some time as she was the ever elusive friend of Steven that I always heard about but never knew much about. We started randomly talking in December and one thing led to another and now here we are. I never would have been able to predict this, but I would not have it changed in the slightest.
I was not happy five months ago, but I am happy now. I do not know where this road is going, but when have I ever known that?
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February 6th, 2010 at 12:41 pm
Do my eyes deceive me? An actual BLOG post?
your gonna make me do one too now aren’t you? J/k
Life is strange, you never know where you’ll end up… you just hope you end up on the good side of things!
February 6th, 2010 at 4:21 pm
i’m glad you’re happy, i really am. maybe one day i will get to feel that way again too! but for now, i’m just glad that you’re doing well and have found something you’re looking for! despite how it may have seemed at the time, i have never wanted you to be unhappy regardless of how things turned out. hope that’s easier to realize now too